The Lively White Lilies and My Spider Webs

November 8, 2007 at 8:31 pm 1 comment

Sometimes I feel like I’m such a cruel, mean, a hard-pusher girl ever lived, as if I swallow all the good things nice people have inside then just leave them dying alone and what’s left of me is satisfied laughter.

And I just walk, walk, walk away, run, run, and hide beside the so-called innocence which people usually think is my bright ability.

So I poured some waters into my white lilies growing up in the garden of my palace where everybody always commented beautiful and lively. They never grew up so instantly cuz I only give them life occasionally. What the neighbours don’t know is what lies beneath the wonderful greengrass–such a dark, spider-web-walls and rooftops, that’s always been a forbidden room they could ever walk into.

And these tears came out of the corner of my eyes cuz I never feel as lively as them who could grow in peaceful air as now these problems attacking my sane days. The thing I feel like regreting cuz it has to do with some people’s hearts and feelings, and I just suck their happiness like Dementors do so they can only be crying and staring into spider webs with an empty feelings inside their no-longer breathing hearts.

What do I do? Hung up the telephone and slept and dreamt about the other victims! What on earth do I really want? Satisfaction? Admiration? Popularity? Significant position? Stared-eyes from the jealous?

I only make them cry…

Nothing I can do to fix it but make silence.

I know I’m a fool the Merlin’s Beard ever swore off!


Please forgive me, God, PLEASE.

So long.


Entry filed under: Love, Screwed-up.

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1 Comment Add your own

  • 1. rickQ  |  November 8, 2007 at 9:21 pm

    Wah..wah…bneran kacau ney


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